New Year! New Decade! Oh yeah i have a blog...

Two months ago, i finished playing around with this blog.

and then promptly forgot about it

Okay, inaccurate. I bought a notebook, i made some vague plans with regards to some topics i wanted to write about. 

And then my downswing happened. 

My mental health is a lot better than it was a decade ago. In some ways, i'm in a better place than i was a decade ago. But i still do have bad swings and when they're bad they're bad. 

This particular one is steadily getting better but at the worst part of it, I was not a very pleasant person. 

(I could argue at length about how i am not a very pleasant person in reality, but that is a different post for a different time)

And NotPleasant!Mae did not have energy nor the brain power to write anything. 

But I am slowly coming out of this particular dark swing and i wandered down here again. I still have that empty notebook in my bag and a desire to keep this blog going i suppose. 

Regardless of readership i suppose. I have no illusions about how interesting i could be. (In that I am firmly Not.) But there is really no other place for me to hammer out thoughts. I have yet to learn how to detach acknowledgement/attention from value, but that's a process. 

I need to learn that even if it is not read, my thoughts still matter. 

I haven't really started any new games, so no new reviews. I did recently work through some of Netflix's The Witcher and sort of liked that. So maybe that is something i can work with. I did fall head over teakettle over DS9 again, and i'm thinking of doing reviews of some of the episodes there too. I've struggled through a few books, but not really anything i can say that i liked.

Not much has happened in the last 2 months, which isn't anything new. 

I will try to return when i can have a better organised brain. Considering i'm distracted by watching MatPat. lol